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11 Lessons in Life I Learned The Hard Way
A wise man once said, “If you don’t listen, you will feel.”
I have been on a journey of self-awareness for the better part of three years now. I knew I was always missing something in my life. Hence the reason I would stay in toxic relationships too long, give trust to the most untrustworthy, and binge eat and drink my way to happiness. At least, that’s what I thought I was doing.
As I continued to self-destruct, a light bulb went off, and it was bright as fuck. It recently got more luminous, so bright I couldn’t dim it, and I had to look directly into it. As I stared into it, I saw spots where I had taken the wrong turn many times in life. Times when I put others before me and had no boundaries at all! Times when I would react to situations and not respond. It’s a miserable way to live.
I was becoming a human doormat and simultaneously developing anger of self-hate, which I could no longer live with. Although it is still a struggle as I continue to work on myself.
With this, I consciously chose to change my life, what I had control over. The first thing I changed was my relationship with an abusive partner. I cut her out of my life 100% this time. There is no going back. Each time I returned, I validated my little self-worth for myself; it was disgusting…
