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11 Lessons Life Mistakes Have Taught Me about Self-Awareness
Making my way through life one stumble at a time.
I have been on a journey of self-awareness for the better part of two years now. I knew I was always missing something in my life. Hence, I would stay in toxic relationships too long, give trust to the most untrustworthy, and binge eat and drink my way to happiness.
As I continued to self-destruct, a light bulb went off, and it was bright as hell. It recently got more luminous, so bright I couldn’t dim it, and I had to look directly into it. As I stared into it, I saw spots where I had taken the wrong turn many times in life. Times where I put others before me and had no boundaries at all! Times where I would react to situations and not respond. It’s a miserable way to live.
I was becoming a human doormat and, at the same time, developing anger of self-hate I could no longer live with.
With this, I made a conscious choice to change what I had control over in my life. The first thing I changed was my relationship with an abusive partner. I cut her out of my life 100%. There is no going back. Each time I went back, I validated my little self-worth for myself; it was disgusting and depressing. The longer I stayed, the more I pushed those in my life away for the right reasons. The problem…
