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11 Truths I’ve Learned About Myself After Dating a Narcissists
If you want a crash course in self-discovery, date a Narcissists.
I have been on a journey of self-awareness for the better part of four years now. I knew I was always missing something in my life. Hence the reason I would stay in toxic relationships too long, give trust to the most untrustworthy, and binge eat, and drink my way to happiness. At least that’s what I thought I was doing.
As I continued to self-destruct, a light bulb went off, and it was bright as fuck. It recently got more luminous, so bright I can’t dim it. I had to look directly into it. As I starred into it, I began to see spots. Spots where I have taken the wrong turn many times in life. Times where I put others before myself, and had no boundaries at all.
Especially times where I’d react to situations, and not respond. It’s a miserable way to live.
I was becoming a human doormat, and at the same time, developing anger of self-hate I could no longer live with.
With this, I made a conscious choice to change in my life what I had control over. The first thing I changed was my relationship with an abusive partner. I cut her out of my life 100%.
