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3 Confusing Things About Narcissist Abuse You Need to Know
Sometimes, accepting that you will never understand is the best option.
As I wake up on the eve of what would be 4.5 years in what I believe to be a Narcissistic relationship, there is still a lot I don’t understand. I have tried to tell myself some things that are impossible to understand and better left alone. But if you’ve experienced what you believe was Narcissistic Abuse, you can understand my confusion.
I tried to dissect every conversation, lie, and story that didn’t match up, and it just led me into a deeper hole of insanity. It is a crazy and miserable way to live. Just when you think you have it licked, something triggers a thought, then the overthinking begins, and you are off to the races playing detective in your own mind again.
I saw all the red flags in the beginning but dove headfirst. In the same weird subconscious level, I craved the abuse, I also knew what I was volunteering for.
- Obsession: I don’t know about you, but I still, to this day, have an obsessive need to explain myself or write about it. Not just to others but to her. I want her to understand what she did to me. I want her to understand the pain and confusion she caused to my mental health. I want to yell at her, cuss her out and take all…
