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3 Ways Self-Loathing Will Keep You Stuck in Destructive Patterns
When destroying yourself is comfortable but it’s not the way out.
I’m the self-loathing extraordinaire! Man, do I love that shit! I was hoping you could give me a double, hell, make it a triple! It’s an excellent way for me to justify my fucked up erratic behaviors that lead me into the path of destruction I call home.
Did you catch that?
I am so good at self-loathing I don’t even realize I do it. I’ve conditioned myself that it is my go-to “out” when I feel like shit. Let me pile on and make myself feel worse; it plays right into my victim mentality at times. But the incredible thing is, I am aware. And with awareness, people change if they put the awareness into action.
It’s easier that way
There is no easier way to comfort your miserable self for all your fuck ups than feeling sorry for yourself, right? My lord, I love it! It makes me feel alive, like I have hope once again. When all it does is dig me into a deeper grave while I am chasing the acceptance of others that “my life sucks!” Of course, it does, you dummy, why wouldn’t it? All you do is make piss poor choices, keep the same abusive people in your life, and expect things to change. That’s not how it works. You have to do the…
