Do you ever feel like everything you've done in life, is a colossal failure?

They are lessons, not failures.

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I use to believe that.

• I got within 18 credit hours of graduating college and didn’t finish.
• I had three relationships, with one being a 17-year marriage that hasn’t worked out.
• I walked on division 1 football, never playing high school. I made the team but ended up quitting.
• I paid $100k too much for a business I purchased. I ended up making a little, but not before selling because I thought the company was the problem. When I’m in reality, it was me.
• I don’t have the most “high” status or respectable job, but it’s given me the freedom and options I want.
• I don’t own my own home.
• I haven’t saved as much as I should at this chapter in my life.

Those are just a few of what I consider “failures” in my life.

How do I deal with it? I don’t “deal with it.” I accept it.

And the older and more aware I get, they aren’t failures; they are lessons.

I constantly judged myself by what I believed others thought about me. I

I was living life by other people’s standards.

I constantly was in search of everyone’s “validation.” And would forgo my happiness by what other people “thought” about me.

There are very few things I would change in the “life” path I am on.

Why would I?

I’m just getting to know myself. And I’m digging myself.

Character defects and all.