Do You Gain “Self-Esteem” by The Flaws in Others?

If you do, you are confusing Self-esteem with Ego, and insecurities.

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I’m not thrilled to admit it, but lets be honest, in a toxic way, yes. It’s an insecurity thing.

I was at my most comfortable if subconsciously I could bring people down to my level of “fuckedupness.” But more so, I loved to run with those I kinda felt “better than” if that makes sense?

Two years ago I would had never admitted this, let alone realize I was doing it. The last two to three years have been very eye opening for me in many different ways.

I feel more comfortable around overweight people, or those of no “real” status

People of status and extremely attractive people bring me great anxiety. I finally realize it all comes from me not feeling good enough, or comfortable in my own skin.

Fucked up, eh? Talk about screaming insecurity, yep, that’s me.

I have to constantly remind myself we all put our pants on the same way. People come in all shapes, sizes, looks and socioeconomic lives.

It’s called judgment, and I do it a lot, well, I did.