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Do You Hate Your Ex For Cheating on You?
Betrayal is the most damaging act a partner can commit.
I’d like to say yes, yes I do. Look what she ruined, but what was ruined? I honestly believe I was just a number to her.
I admit, I hated her behaviors and actions at times. And other times, I couldn’t love anyone more in this entire world. There wasn’t anyone that would come before her. NO ONE.
I’m trying to focus on accepting the betrayal and her as she is. I’m not sure what happened in her life that made her do the things she did, and I’ll never understand because she was never honest with me.
How can I hate someone that had things happen in their life that, in return, made them who they are today?
I’d try to “talk” to her about her past. What was it? But it is probably darker than I could understand or support. My intuition tells me there is, and I’m learning to listen to it.
In some of our fights, I’d say the most awful stuff, and the morning after was the worse for me. I’d have to relive my words, and it was excruciating. I would be quick to offer an apology, but it fell on deaf ears. Yea, many call it reactive abuse. While it was, I was still aware of what I was getting into every time I chased her down. The mornings after were horrible. I’d wake up, and my default brain would go to…
