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Do You Have a Habit of Making The Wrong People a Priority in Your Life?
If you’re anything like me, you live by this philosophy.
I love to prioritize a superficial version of people who don’t exist.
Most days I put so much focus on an “idea” of relationships, people and situations, I lose touch with reality, to what, and who they really are.
Once my ticker starts thinking I will come up with all types of rational to keep me living the delusion I created long ago of myself, not them.
One more chance is all I need, and I can prove my worth mother fucker!
Do you hear me? One more time, PLEASE!! God, please! I’m sorry! Don’t leave!
Why can you see what I can’t? Open your god damn eyes, will you? Because I sure as fuck won’t.
My brain is completely fried, it took three years of writing, five years of chasing, and many more years escaping. I’ve finally accomplished what I didn’t even know I was pursuing. Nothingness.
No one really cares about you
But we spend our whole life trying to create, or control those around us. All in hopes of catching a glimpse from someone else of what we don’t give…
