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Do You Sometimes Feel Like You Remember Something That Never Happened?
I know it sounds confusing but hear me out.
Every day.
I was in one of the most toxic, manipulative relationships one could experience.
When you spend years with someone that lies constantly and gaslights you, it’s easy to lose touch with reality.
She recently told me to write about how manipulative I am. With her saying that, I started to think about it. Am I manipulative? I can be. I think anyone can.
I can be severely manipulative when I “test” her to see if she loves me. In reality, sadly, I have come to this point in my life at 47 years old; I’m testing a known, manipulative, lying asshole for my self-worth.
She’s not talking to anyone, but it never is. If anything, I manipulate myself every day. I go back, thinking it’s going to be different.
Recently she wanted to have a “friend” that she cheated on me with. Don’t you know, you dumb fuck! We are just friends!
Then I thought, “what a kick in the balls.”
Cheat on someone, then tell them you will be friends with the person you cheated with. Her level of delusion is extreme, but I’m not far behind her chasing this lunacy.
