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Do You Subconsciously “Enjoy” Being Manipulated, And Abused?
Most won’t admit it, but how else do you explain the cycle?
If you ask yourself this question it’s about as big a self-realization moment you can have. It’s one that may just set you free if you allow it.
I wouldn’t say you love it, but it might get the ole gears turning in the “feelings” department. You “love” that shit on a subconscious level, at least for me I did/do.
This was a hard pill to swallow when I started digging deeper into my abandonment shit, as well as codependency. I’m still trying to come to grips with what it abuse, neglect, abandonment, and manipulation makes me feel.
It’s almost like it gives me life, or at least makes me feel something. Even if that “something” isn’t good.
If there is no chaos in my relationship, then what is there? What will I do if I’m not chasing someone around trying to prove my self-worth?
What would I do if I wasn’t in a constant state of limbo of self doubt, and confusion, in which I gaslight myself, and call it “love.”
I love this person god damn it!
Why don’t they act right? Why can’t they see how simple it all is? Why can’t they see what I don’t do, and what…
