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How Can I Feel Better About Life and make 2022 a Great Year?
Oh, man! The million-dollar question!
First, ask yourself why do you feel bad about life now? What is it? There has to be a reason, no?
For me, I don’t like the life I’ve created. If you were a fly on the wall in my apartment daily, you would see this. From an outsider looking in, I don’t look that unhappy. I laugh a lot, and I love making those laugh around me. It’s easy to mask misery, so easy I’ve become a master at it. Many walk around with the mask of pain.
Why don’t I like the life I created, you ask? I have no fucking clue; maybe it’s disgust with myself because I spent four years with someone I let treat me like total shit. That shit sits with me, and the rumination wears me down. I hate myself forever loving her. When you finally realize the person you would have done anything for doesn’t love you, let alone care about you, it just hits different. It’s a hard pill to swallow seeing them for who they really are. Not so much seeing them, but believing who they have shown you, they are for all these years. She did her best to show me, but I wouldn’t believe it.
So, if you want to feel better about yourself, try and find out what is making you feel poorly about life, to begin with.
