How do You Know if You Believe in Yourself?

Actually I don’t, but I am getting closer than I think.

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To believe in oneself you have to trust yourself, and right now, I don’t just yet, but I’m close. The last six years have been my biggest obstacle, and curse, but blessing also.

I’m trying to make better choices, and deal with triggers, anxiety, and life “differently” than I used to.

I’m trying to be more “responsive” and less “reactive” which is no easy feat when trying to heal CPTSD. My emotions can take me for a wild, tormenting ride at times, and calming myself down can seem next to impossible at times.

I’m slowly making progress even if I want to deny it sometimes. I can read my writings here, Quora, and in my journal, to see just how far I have come over the years. It’s hard to see when so much is changing. But once you step away from the chaos and quiet your mind it’s something you can’t help but notice.

You know you’re changing when some of your journals, and writings are “cringe” worthy. And there is nothing wrong with cringing at past behaviors, and choices. It’s what is leading me down this new path of myself. And looking back, I never in a million years thought I’d end the miserable relationship I was in for good, but finally did.