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How do You Know When You Found The “One?”
With anything in life, not just a partner. How?
I sit in my car as the rain pounds on my windshield, and cracks of thunder rumbles in the distance. I glance at the clock, 12.41pm. I am always early…12.42pm. Ok, at 12.45pm I will go in, I tell myself. Ok, 12.46pm, shit, I’m late and take off in a dead sprint towards the building. As I run, the cold rain soaks my shirt and I think “what the hell am I doing here?” I have tried therapy so many times and failed miserably. I’ve learned more on my own than with some whacked out therapist that is usually more fucked up than me. Now my god damn shirt is soaked, this is a sign! Just leave!
I usually go to war with myself before meeting a new therapist, or just don’t show up. I can come up with a million reasons to just “try” but it only takes one for me to pull a no show. At least I am here, I tell myself. I put my nerves on idle and attempt another shot at sanity with what I believe was brought to surface by Narcissists abuse.
Carl! It hasn’t worked in the past so why the hell do you think it’s going to work now? You and I both know it will be the same bullshit where you do nothing but talk, talk, talk and they offer some superficial text book suggestions you can get from YouTube for free! Quit wasting your time!
