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How do You Manage The Brutal Emotional Triggers After Narcissist Abuse?
Just when you think you have everything under control, the demon surfaces.
It’s fucking hard, so hard. I’m not sure what is an emotional trigger from the manipulation and lies and what is from my childhood abuse. I am confident what she triggered in me stems from my childhood and was brought out of the dark hole I had locked in for years.
Triggers are hands down the worst emotional pain a person can feel. In my opinion, I haven’t had anything come close. Maybe the death of a child, but the triggers are bad. I can’t even explain the feeling. It’s one of those things you have to experience to get a full understanding.
They aren’t as bad as they were, but I can easily take myself back in time and relive it if I want to. But I try and stay out of that part of my brain. When triggered it’s very easy to become irrational with bits of insanity. I look forward to the day the triggers are behind me.
The visual triggers, smell, and songs are getting less and less. But they are still resting, ready to pounce when called upon. I am getting better at becoming aware of my body and I can sense them surfacing. From there it’s up to me what I do with them. When I would drink with them, let’s just say it wasn’t…
