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How Do You Trust in an Untrustworthy World?
One guy’s thoughts in a fucked up world.
I was chatting with yet another “friend” I met online. I write on topics where cheating and abuse run rampant, so maybe it’s the world I write in, who knows. I want to believe the best in people, but they generally end up proving my belief is wrong. So, I am beginning to consider it is me and has nothing to do with them.
The Start
I began writing and sharing my relationship experiences 2.5 years ago. And I write on the most fucked up of fucked up topics, Narcissism and, more importantly, the Cluster B Personality. Cluster B Personalities can be very dangerous if they are untreated to the unknowing victim. And for some reason, I seem to be a magnet to them, and it was long before I started writing to them.
I am beginning to see my attraction to those that are emotionally unavailable. I was raised in a household where feelings and emotions weren’t allowed. And if you did show them at times, the emotion was shamed as being weak or needy. I’m still trying to sort it all out now that I am approaching 3 months of no contact from an ex that put me on this path of hell.
