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How Long Does it Take to Get to “Indifference” After a Narcissistic Relationship?
It’s a place every victim has to achieve if they truly want to heal. But, how long does it take to get there is the question.
It took me just about 6 years. Yea, 6 fucking years of obsessing, ruminating, doubting, questioning, chasing, frustrated, vengeful, and the whole nine yards. I was a fucking mess. And still am to an extent, but indifference is right here. Looking at myself, I’m not a mess due to her, I’m a mess to what the relationship showed me about myself.
If you walk away from the relationship with a new view of yourself, you have done it right in my opinion.
So many stay upset and angry with the abuser. When in reality, the abuser wasn’t doing anything wrong. They were just doing what they do, and being who they are. All while we were trying to “trick” them into being something we needed them to be; a “caring, and loving partner.” That’s impossible for them. But many, like you and I, think we can change them, or they will see the “light” with us if we just cut them some slack.
My anger has finally subsided after 6 long years, with her at least. I still have the short fuse, and rage in me at times. That unhinged, emotional deregulation…
