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How Narcissists Throw You Off Your Reality and Bring You Into Theirs
This is where the fun starts. Have a seat.
Step right up! Welcome to the land of delusion, I mean, illusion!
I was in one of the most toxic manipulative relationships one could experience; at least, I need to believe that so I don’t repeat it.
When you spend years with someone that lies constantly and gaslights you, it’s easy to lose touch with reality. And there is nothing more confusing than questioning your own thoughts and actions because you are basing them on a reaction to the abuse. You will begin to question if you are, in fact, the abusive one. I mean, you do blow your fucking lid, right?
My ex has told me to write about how manipulative I am. With her saying that I started to think about it.
Am I manipulative? I can be. I think anyone can.
The part where I am incredibly manipulative is when I’d “test” her to see if she loved me. I mean, come on, I know she didn’t. You don’t treat someone like she treated me if you love someone. I always joked, “ I would hate to see how you treat someone you hate!”
In reality, it’s sad I have come to this point in my life at 47 years old; I’m testing a known, manipulative, lying asshole for my self-worth. I…
