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I Didn’t Hate Myself Today, Did You?
Unhealthy habits are hard to break
I got up and drank my lemon water. I took 3 minutes to meditate. I know it’s not long, but it is challenging for me. It is new to me, but I’ve read meditation has excellent benefits.
As my thoughts began to drift, usually to terrorize me, they brought me to sadness. I found more things out about my ex that were devastating but sad at the same time. I tried to help her and understand, but I’m accepting it’s impossible. I’m working on releasing anger and accepting forgiveness, not of her, but for myself.
I am accepting the past exactly how it is. Knowing I can’t change it and to dwell on it is utter self-sabotage. Her cheating, lies and manipulation had nothing to do with me but everything to do with her.
It’s was a bit dreary today, but I went for my 5-mile walk; it’s been a while. Half my walk, I listened to my coaching session with Meredith Miller again. Each time I listen to our session together it reminds me again, I’m not alone. She’s helping me unravel my Childhood Trauma and address the Narcissistic abuse too.
Then the other half of the walk, I listened to the city I reside. I noticed the birds, squirrels nervously looking for food, the wind, the cool raindrops hitting my forehead, and the wind on the trees. Sunday mornings are quiet in…
