Not as much as I was. I had a friend who was dating a very powerful and successful politician. His success was crippling her because everyone thought he was so “great” but he was abusive as hell.
My ex isn’t that grandiose. I’d say more histrionic/narc which is similar to covert. They are so damaging because the vulnerability and their cycle from grandios to vulnerable. Exhausting.
I stopped looking at anything she was doing or writing. I know the truth. I don’t need to read her denial. I lived it. I know who she is.
Hang in there!