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The Apology: The Vicious Cycle of Narcissist Abuse
It’s a love-and-hate relationship you are desperately trying to escape.
Maybe you are just out of another argument. You just lost your shit again! But this time, they deserved it! They pushed you to your limit on how much manipulation your mind can handle.
You are tired of them lying and making you think you are crazy because you ask them about the lie. I mean, you are even polite about it in case your accusations are wrong, but they rarely are. Then they started the circle talk and changing topics on you. Or better yet, they ignore you as if you aren’t even there.
Then it happens
You blow a gasket and unleash a flurry of truth they can’t handle; they retreat and disappear.
You are so fucking pissed you can’t think straight. Your mind is going in every direction but the right one. You are justifying your reaction, then feel the guilt creeping in simultaneously.
Maybe you were wrong? Perhaps they were telling the truth?
No, no, no! Stop it! They do this to you every time. You caught them red-handed now; you have proof! But maybe your delivery was a bit harsh?
