The Disaster That Follows; Dating After Narcissists Abuse

Have you ever had one of those relationships that threw you for a loop?

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Six years ago I was getting involved with a girl I knew I shouldn’t, but did. Self doubt, and uncertainty was permeating my soul. Something was off, but I couldn’t quite pin point it, but it wasn’t normal. I was still in the fog of the last relationship, looking for anything, or “body” to take away the misery of what I believed to be “lost love” at the time.

Three months into the relationship my self doubt, and confusion was given a quick “101” in; listen to your intuition, and never doubt yourself again.

She ended up being married, as well as having many other skeletons in the closest that could startle the grim reaper himself.

But by this time, the damage was already in the making. I was 95% trauma bonded, and the cognitive dissonance was so bad I was taking her side against friends, and family who were asking, “WTF was wrong with me.”

I stayed five more years as I experienced her fucking my best friend, playing a 70 year old man with cancer against me, physical violence, fucking her cousin, manipulation, and gaslighting. I still look back and question what the hell it was I experienced.