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The Real Reason You Stay With The Narcissists
It has nothing to do with love, or manipulation.
Because we love them, I mean, we hate them. Fuck, no, I mean we hate ourselves. Fuck, I don’t know.
We can love them to health! Yea, that’s it!
We can see everything they need to heal in themselves that we can’t do in us. Life is easier that way, ya know? Putting all your focus and energy on someone who has no chance of changing, but keeps you living in the hope that they will.
We are a walking contradiction is what we are
It gives us a reason to get out of bed in the morning. Instead of focusing on our miserable existence, we can blame it all on the narcissists. What a wonderful way to live.
It makes life a little more manageable when you can blame your fucked up self on them. Yea, yea, I know they play big part in the abuse, but there comes a time we have to discover where we fit into the mix too.
I loved to run around pissed, hurt, and angry, but I had a purpose!
What was that purpose?
To fix, and focus on her, and take the focus off me. “Can’t you see how nice I am putting up with all your bullshit!?!”
