The War of The Rational Mind

When it speaks, I listen to the other one.

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She just uploaded WhatsApp again, like it was nothing, and asked me how I was. But did she really care? Probably not. She wants to take it slow, or wait, she needs to be alone. Or wait…..she just wants everything on her terms, and her terms only.

But don’t start your shit Chris. You know feelings stress her out, and she gets overwhelmed then feels attacked. Just play the game mother fucker, just like you did with the other three you dated.

When they need you, be there, when they don’t?

Yep, sit around and wait. But don’t say anything about your feelings!

“She wants to be alone, remember? she’s emotional.”

And when she “needs” you she will reach out. And you know your delusional ass will be there, you always were.

And if you reach out, she will respond. But not like she’s conditioned you with the “old” style of communication. That’s a thing of the past. Now it’s all on her terms. So she will respond, or reach out when she gets a “chance.”

And remember how the beginning of the relationship was? Yea, well, fuck that. It will never be like that. That was an escape mechanism is all.

I know you’re confused Chris, fuck, so am I trying to…