To Create a New You, The Old You Must Die

It can be painful, or peaceful. It’s all about the mindset when the death occurs.

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I’ve spent my life trying to bring a part of me I need to let die. Does that make sense? The part I need to kill off is the same part that is addicted to dysfunction and chaos. I am so afraid of letting the old me die that I keep resuscitating the part of me that is 95% in the grave. And it has not been going well. That part of me will keep coming back if I allow it. At this point, it offers nothing of value.

I keep repeating the same patterns with the same abusive people and using the same unhealthy distractions.

While I am doing this, I call it awareness. It’s not awareness. Self-awareness is taking the knowledge you have learned and putting it into action. That is also true wisdom. A person can read and go to therapy all they want, but you will stay stuck if you don’t take action.

I know many that have been in therapy for years and years. While I am not downplaying therapy, there has to come to a point where you put what you are learning into action. Maybe it’s just me, and I’m beginning to think I love the misery that I live. The minute I start to make progress, I will jump into the most…