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Two Reasons I Write on Narcissism Although I Hate it
Sharing with others who experience this form of abuse helps with the confusion.
It’s been two and a half years since I started writing on this bullshit. I am was approaching three months removed but her manipulation and vulnerability sucked me back in.
I often question if it is Narcissist abuse or just your run-of-the-mill asshole I dated that had some severe issues. But the more I write about it, the more people I’ve had relate to my stories. So, for now, I’m just holding on to “maybe” it is Narcissism, but it was 100% abusive. And if someone loves you, they would never repeatedly treat you the way my ex treated me.
And this last go around proved just that, she never did nor does she love me at all.
I get clarity through writing.
Wait, do I? At least, this is what I tell myself. My main focus is removing my two main distractions from my life, toxic relationships and booze. It’s not easy by any means. It’s almost like I have to learn life from the beginning. Because everything I learned in my childhood and relationships was all wrong. I was conditioned with the wrong kind of conditioning. It’s like trying to learn to walk all over again with no help.
