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What is The Deepest Truth You Have Discovered in Life?
Most won’t be aware of the truth laid before them
I have been on a journey of self-awareness for the better part of two years now. I knew I was always missing something in my life. Hence the reason I would stay in toxic relationships too long, give trust to the most untrustworthy, and binge eat and drink my way to happiness. At least that’s what I thought I was doing.
As I continued to self-destruct, a light bulb went off, and it was bright as fuck. It recently got more luminous, so bright I couldn’t dim it, and I had to look directly into it. As I starred into it, I began to see spots, spots where I have taken the wrong turn many times in life. Times where I put others before me and had no boundaries at all! Times where I would react to situations and not respond. It’s a miserable way to live.
I was becoming a human doormat and, at the same time, developing anger of self-hate I could no longer live with.
With this, I made a conscious choice to change in my life what I had control over. The first thing I changed was my relationship with an abusive partner. I cut her out of my life 100% this time. There is no going back. Each time I went back, I validated my little self-worth for myself; it was disgusting and depressing. The longer I stayed, the more I pushed those away that…
