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What is The Hardest Year in Breaking Narcissistic Abuse?
The year you decide to leave the manipulation
By the time you muster the strength, courage and, hope you have no fucking idea what to expect.
You know there is pain ahead. You know there will be severe cravings in the coming months. But you have no idea how bad it is until you do it.
The year will include a lot of overthinking. A whole lot of self blame and, confusion. You will question if it was abuse or if you didn’t give them a fair shake at it. The Narcissist loves to confuse you.
Hell, let’s not bullshit, you will probably go back or apologize to them for all the reactive abuse. It will give you a little relief from your self inflicted miserable thoughts. They have you believing you are the Narcissist, no?
By the time all this happens you will consider checking yourself into the psych ward in hopes of finding relief.
Then comes your distractions and self sabotage, oh yea, it gets bad. Maybe it’s smoking, binge eating/drinking, researching, reading, watching, sleeping, anger, hate, frustration, happy, more fucking hate, acceptance, then denial, then more hate.
By the time you are done with “this” year, if you’re still alive, or standing for that matter, you will…
