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What is Your Biggest Fear After Narcissists Abuse?
Dating is the first thing that comes to mind.
Trusting another relationship. Not that I don’t trust the relationship, but trusting myself. My last relationship brought out everything I had to work on and put it under a microscope. It almost makes me think, “What’s the point?”
I’m possibly too fucked up to date still. I’ve dabbled in it, and it got bad quickly.
After my last relationship showed, and supported all these horrible character defects in myself. And from what I see not many our interested in a healthy relationship. Well, what their idea of a healthy is, isn’t my idea. People are too quick to jump in the sack without even knowing one another.
I knew I had something to work on, but didn’t know it was to this extreme. I have almost a year since I spoke or talked to my ex. I am doing better, but not where I need to be.
Almost like I was in a sense of denial, actually, it was denial.
I have a propensity to dive head first into red flags, or at least ignore them and give multiple chances. In other words, I have no boundaries.
But with boundaries come extremes in my world.
