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What Remarkably Stupid Things Are You Doing to Screw Up Your Life?
It’s about as honest of a question you can ask yourself.
It’s no secret my life has been in a complete funk for the last 2–3 weeks. And it’s also fitting the funk coincides with me quitting my primary form of comfort, drinking. Well, that and going no contact with an ex, I need to break free from if I have any fighting chance of a normal life.
Drinking was an idiotic thing I did almost daily that seriously stunted my personal growth and physical and mental health. At times I worry I have done irreversible damage, and that reason alone would give me the green light to keep drinking. I’d think, “what the hell, the damage is done, might as well keep going.” But then I had a light bulb go off that made me realize that if I stop, things don’t have to get worse, right?
With drinking came chasing an abusive ex-girlfriend too. I mean, this part was remarkably stupid, but very embarrassing too. Sometimes I share too much, especially in my writings. But what I have noticed is a lot of people relate to what I write. I’m also to the point I don’t care what people think about me. I mean, I do to a point; everyone does in a way. But I have a small group I care what they think, but random strangers, not so much, at least not as much as before. I’ve had so…
