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When The Time is Right, We Change?
Keep telling yourself that and the consequences could be fatal.
You know how many times I’ve told myself that?
Tomorrow, next month, on my birthday, after this last drink, after this last piece of cake, after the New Year, etc. Every time was the “right” time in my delusional world.
I disgust myself in reality.
I’d tell myself anything, mostly lies, to keep me in the never ending string of misery, I will call “tomorrow’s.”
It’s always easier to talk about change on another day, other than what you have right now, today. Oh how I loved “tomorrow!” Today gave me hope in the potential of tomorrow.
Confusing? You bet your it is. Try living in my mind for 24 hours, it’s not easy.
Before you know it, a time will come when change is too late. Don’t listen to the bullshit the positive “garbage” the self help “gurus” emphasize,
“it’s never too late to change!”
Actually, there comes a time.
If you don’t believe me, keep fucking up and “waiting” for the right time.
Then you might believe me.
