When You Can’t Break Free From The Narcissist

I know it seems impossible, but there is no other choice

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I am done again, and this isn’t my first time. I wish I could say I finally “get it,” but I don’t.

Is she Narcissist? I have no fucking clue, and that’s what is maddening. Did she do some horrific shit to me? Yes, absolutely she did. Did she apologize? Absolutely she did. Did she promise to change? Absolutely she did.

That’s the thing; you will be conditioned over time NEVER to believe one god damn word that comes out of their mouths. It is all LIES! You will fucking know it, you will know they are lying, but your “addicted” brain will side with them and believe all their bullshit. You will start questioning if you are the Narcissist or abusive one. And oh yea, they will definitely say you are! Adding to your confusion and insanity.

Don’t you fucking dare have a feeling or concern about their past abusive behavior! Don’t you know they are changed! They are really working on it, and you best adhere to what they say. If you don’t? Well, you will be gaslighted until you question your sanity. Then you will react to the insanity, and they will jab the knife in deeper until you surrender.

Then “POOF!” They are fucking gone again, and you are blocked once again while they cry victim and leave you hanging…