When You’ve Had Enough, You Will Stop Torturing Yourself
Your own thoughts torture you more than anything in the world.
There are so many people in the world that are suffering in silence. The neighbor next door, your mailman, the grocery store clerk, the small business owner, the CEO, and so on. Most of us fight some type of demon, but when does it end?
My experience
I’ve been really struggling for the last 10 years since the sale of my business. But the big struggle came with an on-again-off-again relationship. This relationship has changed me and forced me to discover aspects of my personality and overall life in general that need a major overhaul.
But instead of leaning into what I need to heal, I push it away and escape. And my escape isn’t healthy by any means. I am on a constant chase of people that aren’t good for me. I am on again, off again, binge eating and drinking, putting my body through a vicious cycle of hell. Not only my body but my mind and spirit too.
The cycles of hell I put myself through are anything but the norm. Sometimes I wonder if I am the only one suffering to this magnitude.
Is it just me that is this fucked up and can’t handle a trauma-filled past I can’t escape?
