When You’ve Had Enough, You Will Stop Torturing Yourself

Your own thoughts torture you more than anything in the world.

Chris Freyler

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Photo by Maria Oswalt on Unsplash

There are so many people in the world that are suffering in silence. The neighbor next door, your mailman, the grocery store clerk, the small business owner, the CEO, and so on. Most of us fight some type of demon, but when does it end?

My experience

I’ve been really struggling for the last 10 years since the sale of my business. But the big struggle came with an on-again-off-again relationship. This relationship has changed me and forced me to discover aspects of my personality and overall life in general that need a major overhaul.

But instead of leaning into what I need to heal, I push it away and escape. And my escape isn’t healthy by any means. I am on a constant chase of people that aren’t good for me. I am on again, off again, binge eating and drinking, putting my body through a vicious cycle of hell. Not only my body but my mind and spirit too.

The cycles of hell I put myself through are anything but the norm. Sometimes I wonder if I am the only one suffering to this magnitude.

Is it just me that is this fucked up and can’t handle a trauma-filled past I can’t escape?

Our choices help shape our reality, and with choices come consequences

My choices haven’t been good pretty much all through my life. I can count how many positive choices I have made on the one hand, but I have a never-ending string of bad ones. Whether it be that toxic relationship you can’t let go of, a job you hate, or your people-pleasing behaviors you obsess about. If you are anything like me, there is comfort in sitting in misery. Because you care so much about what people think about you. Or you don’t want to let that one person go that is keeping you stuck in the chapter of your book you need to end.

We make many self-sabotaging behaviors daily that could easily be avoided if we’d “lean into the discomfort.” Isn’t it funny how the toxic relationships, the drinking, and all the distractions cause discomfort, but we do it anyway? But when it comes to healthy distractions and choices, we run…

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Chris Freyler

Mistake Maker Extraordinaire .Writing from a place I don’t understand at times. I write to help myself, in return hope it helps you. Just another Quora guy.