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Why a Friend With Benefits “Might” Make Sense After a Narcissistic Relationship
It’s Ok; don’t feel guilty. Or maybe you should?
I’m finally coming to terms with all my childhood abuse and the disaster of a relationship I finally escaped. I could have run sooner, but I chose to “tough” it out and believe every fucking lie that was spoon-fed to me by her. Am I making excuses? Maybe, but I don’t think so. I went in being honest; my ex, well, never was.
Fear of commitment
It’s brutal. While I am 2.5 months removed from the toxic shit that put me on this path, I still feel broken. I haven’t “seen” her physically in 2.5 months, but I have made the dumb-ass drunken calls and spoke with her. And she made sure to inform me she was madly in love and was selling her house.
No, really. She is selling her home and moving in with a new guy. It doesn’t surprise me; she wanted me to move in and play house after one month of dating. Oh, yea, and she was married! Dating her was another dumb choice because it did nothing but confirm my lack of self-worth and the hate I have for myself.
I don’t know who to trust, in all honesty. I seem to keep the enemy close and friends at a distance. It is really fucked up. The whole relationship process seems exhausting to me…
