Member-only story
Why Carl Believes Awareness is The Cause of Major Depression
The more we know, the worst off we are, no?
Carl had a rough childhood. But not as harsh as others, but enough to fuck him up.
Yea, Carl knows it’s his problem, and others have worst and weathered life just fine, but he’s not one of them. So he’d appreciate it if you’d not remind him of yet another failure in life. He has enough anxiety to deal with.
Carl’s life
He was brought into the world as the only one “planned,” but the one that took the brunt of the abuse. He was raised back in the ’80s when beatings were the norm, and depression didn’t really exist, or “maybe” it did. Maybe feelings didn’t matter back then, but now they are over-glamorized, and the “manipulative” prey on what the weak are afraid of.
Carl didn’t have time to be depressed. He was too busy trying to please and appease those around him. Or trying to find work to scrap some cash together, because his family wasn’t “rich.”
He knew little about who he was or who he wanted to be. He was going through the motions of life, but he always felt “off.” He wasn’t like those kids who “seemed” to have life by the balls.
