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Why do Some Have so Much Hate in Them?
There could be various reasons, but the number one reason is unhealed trauma.
Abuse. That’s it, childhood abuse, at that. It’s what we are conditioned to believe and feel. You hurt me; I’ll hurt you more, Mom, fuck you!
There is no reverse card in this game, only regrets and anger. You can’t fix childhood abuse with one party aware and the other trying to buy their way out.
But can you?
I have no fucking clue.
I hated my ex harder than anyone could imagine. But now it’s apathy, not empathy or sympathy, apathy.
She will never truly understand how much I loved her. And she will never understand the pain she caused.
How much I rooted for her and cheered her on as I lost myself in her abuse, trying to find myself.
This bitch will NEVER get it. And I say bitch because I mean it. She really fucking hurt me.
I’m working through my anger, but I’m not staying angry. I don’t make myself angry or force it; if it comes, I express it. And I’m sorry if you’re on the path.
She didn’t mean to hurt me. At least, I hope she didn’t, but who knows?
