Why is it Difficult for Some People to Say, “I Love You?”

Love is a verb; it could be they show love with actions

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I believe it has a lot to do with never feeling loved. At least for me. I can’t say I never felt love, but there was a lot of fear involved too. Generally, I was apologizing for being a “bad boy,” or I was being apologized to for being abused. Do you see the confusion this could have on a young kid’s psyche?

I think some grew up in an environment conducive to abuse, which substituted love. I was raised in a “push/pull” type of environment. I was either being shamed or praised for my behaviors. I try to get in touch with some of my childhood trauma, and I can’t recall why I was beaten at times. I honestly have no idea. Sometimes I question if it ever happened, which I know it did, but I still second guess myself at times. I just know I had a lot of fear in my childhood. It was a constant fear of stepping on a land mine; my dad’s temper was unpredictable at times. He could be the most caring person, but the most abusive too.

I have never told my parents or my siblings I love them. It gives me the most cringe-worthy pain, unexplainable. And to have “I love you” said to me is very uncomfortable also.

I know for 10000% I LOVE my younger sister — we “get” one another. I also know I…