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Why is it that Most People Never Change?
Not some, I’d say most.
Hell, I’m aware of a lot of shit, but I keep repeating the same dumbass patterns. They aren’t even mistakes anymore. When you keep repeating the same pattern of behaviors, they are choices, not mistakes.
Many never change because change is excruciating and uncomfortable. I know; I am struggling my ass off. I will have a good 3–4 weeks, then completely derail. With each derailment, I have difficulty staying on track.
Many project, rationalize, and minimize their poor life choices in order to stay stagnant and “not” change. And they love to blame others and circumstances. They take no accountability.
Do you know the amount of anxiety that comes with not being distracted by a few drinks or a binge eating session? Or better yet, not reaching out to an ex who lied and cheated on me?
It’s a horrible place to be when she brings me comfort. But it shows a lot of what I think about myself, something I NEED to change.
Because when I am with her, all her lies, manipulation, and abuse give me the much-needed dose of anxiety that makes me feel somewhat normal.
It’s through the roof.
Then when the wheels fall off, I’m a complete fucking mess, and I have just to ride the…
